Today's weather most definitely fits my mood   and for soo many reasons .....  Nine years ago today, I lost one of the most important men in my life, my Grandfather.  I wasn't really raised with a father .... my grandfather was my father figure.  He picked me up from school ... taught me how to ride a bike .... and always took care of me, his "little one." (Secretly, I believe I was his favorite)   Growing up, I thought I was adopted because everyone else in my family was fair skinned but my Grandfather reassured me that I belonged to no other family but the Ajero family ... and I couldn't be any prouder of that.  What I regret the most is that I couldn't be by his bedside when he left .... missed him by a few hours I believe.  All I know is that I truly do miss him but I know he's watching over me today and every day. 

So Grandpa, I love you very much and pray for you every day.  I hope you are at peace and I ask you to give me the strength that I need, especially now.  You know what I am going through and I put myself in your's and God's hands.  

MERRY CHRISTMAS .... HAPPY NEW YEAR ... HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY (on 1/12) and BIG UPS TO FRIDAY THE 13th!!!!  You know ... that used to be a bad luck day for me, but times have changed and now I have a reason to smile ....

Things have been pretty much the same for me ... ups and downs but I'm hoping from this point on there will only be ups.  There was a big family scare that my Grandmother, 84 years old, might have breast cancer again.  My aunt left for the Philippines to be with her and I found out last night that everything is A OK!!!  God most definitely answered my prayers!!!  And I have a new addition to the family as well ... my baby cousin Christine!!! So there two huge reasons why I need to go home (PI) VERY soon!!!  

My job is a whole other story, but things should start looking up by February 1st.  Changes are being made .... we'll see ....

I've actually lost a few pounds ... I kno I kno ... I might as well just disappear BUT my eating habits have been getting better again these days.  It's just been stress and being sick that didn't help ... but once again, times are changin!!!

As for my love life ... i'm lucky enough to still have my baby.  I know i've been very hard to deal with lately and I thank you for your patience sweetie!  Don't know what I would do without you!  Mwah!  This one's for you!!!  

"No One Will Do"  ~ MARY J. BLIGE

Seen many men in my time
But none of them compare to mine
I ain't gotta knock on wood
To tell y’all that I got it so good
He's everything that I need and
All that a man should be
Put me on a flight if I wanna
Buy out the mall if I wanna

And I know ya'll heard before
These same old metaphors
My love is so much more
I don’t wanna change it
I don’t wanna do without ya baby
Cause he’s just above the rest
I must confess the best
Love that I’ve ever had
And I just gotta let you know this

Don’t let ‘em tell you nothing different
You’re the only one I’m needing
I don’t want no one but you
Baby no one will do
And what they say don’t even matter
They don’t know what I know about ya
I don’t want no one but you
Baby no one will do

It’s me and him through the wire
Cause when it comes to love he delivers
My personal UPS
I’m sending him an SOS
That I love him and I want him
And don’t wanna replace him with nobody else
I’mma keep holding on
I’mma keep the loving strong

I don’t want nobody, nobody, nobody, no, no, no, no-body but you
I don’t want nobody, I don’t want nobody
You’re the only one for me boo

Well well well .......... it's most definitely been awhile since i've updated my xanga.  I guess you can say i've been pretty much pre-occupied with things ..... life ... work ... family ... boyfriend.  For the most part, I can't complain.  Works pretty much the only downer.    Let's just say it's like being back in school again ... where you're taking a class with an extremely bad teacher.  Shows up when he feels like teaching ... makes you basically learn everything on your own .... and when the teacher assigns you homework, he expects you to know what your doing .... etc.  It makes you feel like ... well if he doesn't care ... why should you?!?!?  I used to be happy ... really happy.  Don't know if it's my boss ... the work .... or the lack of motivation but I hope I get it back soon.  Things are supposed to be done ... meetings are supposed to happen ... but it ALWAYS seems to get pushed back ... week after week.  We'll see ........  

And to add to the downers .... i'm trying to shake off this cough that seems like will NEVER go AWAY!!!!

Anyhoo ....as for the fam ..... sis is still sis.  Mom is still mom.  Actually, mom just had a minor eye surgery but is doing a lot better. 

The brightest light in my life has to be my boyfriend.   Many believed an inter-office relationship would be difficult but it has definitely had a lot more positives than negatives for me.  I get to see him as often as I do .... have mini dates ...  easy access to a hug when I need one ....  a shoulder to lean on ... someone to vent to ... he's my best friend!    I love surprises and he most certainly does what he can to put a huge smile on my face (and at work that is pretty difficult to do!)  The latest ... I love the author Nicholas Sparks.  We actually went to Barnes&Noble the other day and he got me his new release "At First Sight."  But today he tells me he has a surprise for me .... my favorite author was at Barnes & Noble today for a signing.  So Chris first goes looking for a hard copy of  "The Notebook" but couldn't find it.  He gets the movie cover version and Spark's latest release and stands on line and gets both books signed for me  

Honestly, I couldn't be happier and I couldn't be any luckier to be with someone who loves me as much as I love him.  He is my heart!

Ok ok ... i'll stop making everyone sick .... anyhoo ...... other than that ... life is life.  Hope all is doing well ....